i feel it in my bones

the cold is coming on

mixed with memories

cold nights staring out of windows hoping to close the doors

notepad is filled

productive inspiring night/day

i feel change,lets see what happens

adam stephens and oscar wilde tonight

Photos from party are posted HERE

:)

good nights are filled with
friends,fun,music,and food!!!!
(especially cupcakes)
two nights in a row of good stuff.
not going to sleep but telling stories,getting scared, making some music and
hitting the beach instead.
the clouds were to thick to see the sunrise but the laughs that came
out of that trip were so worth the lack of sleep!

it was pretty amazing for a Thursday

spring break is going to be filled with
sun
friends
food
smiles
fresh air
fun
making music
creating
painting
drawing
cutting
creating

fail

record song with crummy program..cant make out words..cant find where i wrote words..
to sum it up...i lost a song.

arent you awake

things are a mess. but they are what is right now. and so is life. have fun

stories.

stories from an everyday person.
stories from their everyday life.
stories of ours.
stories about us.
stories we shouldn't tell.
truth we shouldn't speak.
words that must be told.
words that can bring a calm.

these are all a form of relief.

heavy loss

x2.
heavy are the times now.

The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up

Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
Leon J. Suenes

The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus

Rainer Maria Rilke

"I live not in dreams but in contemplation of a reality that is perhaps the future."

cheap.

cheated by a false advertisement.
things are never as good as they seem
when you think you are in need.

once you stop thinking

you are able to "be"

writing.writing.writing.writing.busy.writing.
busy.writing.writing.songs.songs.music.writing.
school.reading.music.writing.busy.busy.writing.

guess.

i guess its all just a memory now.

we let our hearts pour as we held them out.

Carrying bags and a navy taxi man said
"Take your time love
'Cause you don't have to rush
'Cause it's your life and it's no one else's, sweetheart
Don't let someone put you in a box."

wow.

Last night was THEE most amazing night ever.

so much creativity/fun/love/music

you've never experienced magic like i have.


never.

i swear, the feeling just hit me.

"m y d a y s b l u r t o g e t h e r i n t o a b u s y r a i n b o w o f a m a z e m e n t"


-A.Z

bad

bad.bad.bad.bad.bad.bad.bad day.

inspiring words.
good thoughts.
happy memories.
endless possibilities


made it all better.

-truth-

miss. miss

i miss things.

a lot.


people.

places.

sights.

smells.

colors.

feelings.

movement.




but life is getting good.be soft in your ways lovely.still deeply and madly in like.

throw your arms around my neck

hard times for an honest man

its enough to bring you to tears.
but there's just no end.

Don't try to take on too much all at once. You'll have the breakthrough you want later in the week.

deeply and madly in like

living in dreams.

dream of murder-someone upsets or saddens you

dream of travel (attempting to travel with certain people)- life's adventures, trying to get away. i never made it.
i always seem to let them go alone.

:sigh:

you drunk fool

its a pattern.

it hurts sometimes.
then it goes away.
out of sight out of mind.
move on.
get better.
come back.
sit down.
slam.
your right back to it.
that slump.

theres a little pain.
then it goes away.
but you can still remember that pain.
faintly feeling what it was.
that state you were in.
kind of like a ghost.
its there,but not.
then you move on.
smile.
laugh.
then, well...pain.


it honestly is nothing.means nothing.ends up as nothing.it doesn't matter.
once you realize that,your free.

but its the feeling of having something..
a plan, a schedule,a pattern.
having everything set out for you that keeps you going back to the ups the downs.
the bad times the good times, and holding on to each of them for dear life.
cause without them we would have nothing to depend on.
it would all be up to us.

WE ,would have to make ourselves.




make our lives.



true creativity.





for some people,thats just too much to handle.















(and i do admit,sometimes i lack the imagination.)