darla

"your cage is just too small to move in"


Day.

karma lately sucks
I haven't done anything wrong.
This is the reason things not working out, has made me mad.
So i dumped my water in the parking lot and threw the cup.
I felt bad,but everything else has made me feel worse.
Im stuck in a trance.

Night.

I was listening to something that was my life,and it left me feeling drained.
I wiped up the ring my cup of water left on the table, and set the cup on the napkin then walked away.

this time i wasn't mad.
i just wanted to stay a bit longer,even if it wasn't me physically.
Im stuck in a trance.

Going home i listened to another version of my life,only this time i felt comfort.
Drives at night are lonely, even when you are with people. A very lonely thing. I like them.
I like them especially when i have a faint idea of where Im headed but uncertain at the same time.
I knew i was going home but with each tree the headlights revealed the farther and more unknown my surroundings felt.
I need to drive, i like it. Or find someone to drive me,ill be the passenger and they will be the guide.



something is very, very wrong.

Listen to my music,
And hear what it can do,
There's something here that is as strong as life,
I know that it will reach you.

it had to have been the elder that took control




i have to read this book

no surprise can ever top this one

my life really is magical

ha.

5th 6th 7th 8th

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=663Qo1cJIFo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8L0LrlgaQS8

CATS , i have had lots and lots of them. And i think its for the simple resason that they amaze me..all animals amaze me..mostly animals that are considered pets,and have "homes" ...and the ones that dont have "homes" either. Well they all have "homes" different ideas of homes i guess.
But ehy really do amaze me. How easily they can love or even fear a human. The ones that fear remind me of people, what people really are. The ones that arent remind me too of what people really are. its weird i know, but it makes sense at the same time. funny.
i think ill add more whn i figure more out.

This cats name was ki-ki
he was MINE.
he trusted nobody but me,and only allowed people to pet him when i was around because he knew i would prtect him if anyone tried to do anything wrong. i got him when i live at my old house and when we moved my mom didnt want to bring him. I walked him through our old house empty and he looked scared, as if he knew what was happening. About a day or two later thinking about him i cried. So we drove back and got him then brought him here. I had to walk him on a leash a few days to use the restroom outside so he wouldnt run away. Soon he got used to this place and it became his. At our old house someone had though it would be fun to shoot at him with a bb gun. he came in one day with a siler thing shining from inside the top of his tail, so i told my mom to help me take what looked like the tiny head of a nail out of him. He also had one in his right cheek. Under his right eye was another that he had gotten out himself. Due to him tearing it out he had a hole in face pretty much. Right under his eye there was a part of him missing and it looked horrible. THat is why my mom didnt want to brong him,i think she figured he would soon die and didnt want me to deal with that. But he lived 3 more years here at our new house. The hole cause a lot of people to treat him bad and never want to pet him or be near him, so nobody loved him but me. I dont know how he died. One night he sat in the driveway and watched me as i walked out to call him in for food, he wouldnt move. So i sat next to him and pet him for a good or 30 minutes, after i kissed him on the head and said goodnight. He sat and wathced me walk awa As i walked away he still sat there watching me. It was weord cause usually he would come in at night and sleep in my room but that night he just stayed in that spot and wathced me go back in. I never saw him after that.